Nak berhenti kerja ke tak eh?

Patut ke berhenti kerja?
Dan teruskan niat aku untuk usaha dan bukak spa?

Patut ke?
Patut ke?

Gaji memang besar sekarang. Walaupun takde la cecah RM5K. Tapi, untuk orang bujang macam aku, kira dah besar dah.

Orang kata, periuk besar, kerak pun besar.
Buat masa ni, kerak aku memang besar pun.

Kalau berhenti... memang ikat perut la. Tapi, kalau tak berhenti, camne nak fokus untuk teruskan impian aku?
Takkan nak postpone lagi. Banyak dah benda yg aku buat, tapi separuh jalan je.
Aku taknak macam tu lagi.
Taknak lagi jadi orang yang buat kerja separuh jalan je.

Saya nak jadi orang yang berusaha sampai habis. Sampai dapat kejayaan.
Orang nasihatkan aku, sambil kerja, sambil berusaha untuk bukak bisnes.

Cakap terus terang, aku energy memang dah almost zero kat tempat kerja aku. Pergi pun sebab pikir aku nak duit. Kerja sebab nak dapat gaji. Itu je.
Bila balik rumah plak, terus siap2kan diri untuk tidur. Kalau cuti. Memang nak rehat. Fine, kutuk la cakap aku pemalas. Tapi, masa cuti tu la aku masak kat rumah. Panggil abang aku sekeluarga makan. Berkumpul. Itulah rehat aku. Masa cutilah aku teman mak aku pergi bank. Bayar apa yang perlu dan mampu dibayar. Semua tu masa cuti.

Sebab tu aku rasa nak sangat berhenti. Aku nak fokuskan semuanya pada impian aku. Nak realisasikan impian ni.
Nak bagi cabaran pada diri aku sendiri. Untuk usahakan sehingga berjaya, walaupun mula dengan perkara yang kecil.

Ya Allah, Kau Maha Mengetahui, berilah aku petunjuk. Amin.

What's next?

Now, what should I do next to pursue my dream?

So much going on into my head. I can't pick one or put it into words. All jumble up.

What step should I after registering a company? What else?

1. I need to find capital for my business.
2. I need to get proper place to set up my spa.
3. I need knowledge. Business knowledge. Accounting knowledge.

For question 1, i know there are a lot government related bodies and entities that willing to help. But, most of them help to expand business. Start up loan, I am not so sure.

Place? Location is extremely important in business. I have 2 choices that still haven't decided which one, yet.
First location is at Anjung Seri, Nusajaya. A bit far. Currently the place now like a dead town. But, it have bright future. Near to government offices and some high end residential houses.
Second location is extremely near to my house. I can just walk to the shop house. But, the area is not that well-known. If I choose second location, I can save up my petrol bill. :D

Finally, knowledge. Yeah. That is the utmost important (it have a bit higher percentage of important then capital, hehehe... ). I have sign up for 2 classes in next three weeks.
1. Program Pendidikan Perniagaan by SSM. This is on 24th May.
After attending this program, need to straight away go to work. :((
2. Program by Chef Li. Well, my mum encourage me to sign up (mind you, it cost RM50) after listening from IKIM.fm.

So far, that's the only step that I have taken so far. I am still calculating either want to quit my job this month or not. Still weighing the pros and cons.
Of course, if I quit, I can focus all my time and energy to work this out. But, money matters mah....


Tata for now...

Kelahiran Arus Kasih - Part 2

Bismillahirrahmanirrahiim.

I have thinking a lot lately. My energy is very low while working nowadays. Why?

It seems like I can't commit myself there. In McDonald's, it's look like everybody is giving their heart and soul to the golden arch. This is so true to my RM and my BM.

Not me. My heart is not there. My soul? Go figure!

I am not happy. This situation taken a great toll to myself. My life. My energy. My surrounding.

I cried a lot. A damn lot!

My body start to betray me. My headache, my back is painful when I wake up. Doctor said it's symptoms of hypertension. What?!!

I am not a very focus young woman. I admit that. And by not focusing on a certain and clear goal does not bring me to any achievement.

So, I am thinking.

Thinking.

And a lot more crying.

Why I want to waste all my energy to something that literally draining my life? I should focus. Focus on what will be meaningful to me.

I realize that I have abandon lots of opportunities in my life.

Now, I want to revive my childhood dream. A SPA of my own. Before I reach 30.

Listening to our heart saying is not that easy. Need to put my feet firm on the ground and grasp the reality. Because, well, I am a bit idealistic person. For idealist like me, world is made from petal of roses.

Still, a journey is start from a silly, baby step.

So, I take all my courage today. Gather all my strength and hope for Allah's blessed.

Midday of 11 May 2011, I went to SMM at Menara Ansar and register my first ever business.

Under name

ARUS KASIH

So, at 2.06pm , 11 May 2011, it's a birth of Arus Kasih. A name I dedicated it to my beloved dad. Mr. Md Arus bin Peei.

I have big dreams for Arus Kasih.

And, Arus Kasih journey start.. today....

Kelahiran Arus Kasih -Part 1

Bissmillahirrahmanirrahiim.

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wa barakatuh,

Bagaimana harus mulakan perenggan ni?

I want to utilize this blog, to be part of my journey. I have taken a very first step today to make my dream come true.

When I was a teenager, I dream big! Well, who doesn't? I am good with my study even I did not have to push my self hard enough. I like my school life. It was easy. With good grades, I complicate my life with teenager's crush, BFF's fight and be a nosy git in my best friends life.

When I was 7, I want to be a dancer.

When I was 12, I want to be a professor.

When I was 15, I want to be a doctor. Typical mindset since I was good in science.

When I was 17, I want to be a scientist.

Yet, there is secret desire inside me that want to do a lots of thing. Since kid I am very good with words. I have a loud mouth (mind you, it was sharp too!) and I can write a short stories.

My teachers are my idols. Until today. Puan Adibah Amin really plays major parts in my secret interest in literature. So does Puan Azizah, Puan Ainon. I still love literature. It's like a burning passion. I like interpreting all those double meaning that hidden in a literature verse. Both Malay and English. During my glorious teenage days, I ignore my loved in literature because I saw it as a 'lame' thing. Yet, the ember still there.

Other than literature, there is another side of me that loved to be pampered. Spa, a massage, vacation, road trip.. it's really my things!

So, I remember mentioning to myself that before I am 30, I will owned a spa.

I am 25 years old now. Working as a trainee manager in McDonald's Chinatown, Singapore. Old sweet days when I do not need to push myself to succeed is finally over.

I am thinking to myself, life is to long to not try and achieve my dream. I have a gift that I had neglect. But, I still have a dream that I still can commit to.

To own a SPA and be a successful businesswoman.